It's interesting how quickly one's mood can change! One minute you're writing from the depths of your appreciation, the next, you're feeling like shite. (Irish version of the word shit, Irish think that if you just change a letter in a curse word, like feck in stead of fuck, it makes the word less rude. Maybe it does! Gotta love the Irish!!)
Did I buy into my own past and the feelings in them, while I was writing, or why am I feeling so low? What has been my internal dialogue for the last hour or so? Oh yes, the Revenue. I was thinking about my VAT returns and PRSI and PAYE payments. That's interesting. Do I change my internal dialogue so flimsily to a negative from the heights of appreciation and gratitude?
And you know, the immediate reaction was; I need a hug. I'd love to be able to share these things with someone.
Is shared pain doubled pain? Do we need to share our BS with our partner and expect them to make it better, or am I genuinely just wanting a hug?
Human touch is powerful, absolutely, and it has healing power. This is why we're not supposed to be alone! It's like, "right, I can own my own stuff, but would like to be reminded of what really matters through the medium of another human's touch".
So it's a double-edged sword; on one hand, a lot of people expect someone else to make them feel better, and on the other hand, we need touch to be connected to the truth of continuum of what's real; life. How do you know which edge you're playing with?
Maybe it's the feeling of appreciation when someone is around to touch you, when you need it, instead of demanding someone to be there for you, when things go south? Yes, that feels right. To demand of another something you can't give to yourself is creating co-dependency, but to be appreciative of another's presence is supportive of personal growth and expansion.
Phhhhew! That was a close call in directing energy. Could have gone either way!
I choose appreciation. Thank you for being in my life, even if in a virtual capacity.
Until we touch,
Much love,
M
Did I buy into my own past and the feelings in them, while I was writing, or why am I feeling so low? What has been my internal dialogue for the last hour or so? Oh yes, the Revenue. I was thinking about my VAT returns and PRSI and PAYE payments. That's interesting. Do I change my internal dialogue so flimsily to a negative from the heights of appreciation and gratitude?
And you know, the immediate reaction was; I need a hug. I'd love to be able to share these things with someone.
Is shared pain doubled pain? Do we need to share our BS with our partner and expect them to make it better, or am I genuinely just wanting a hug?
Human touch is powerful, absolutely, and it has healing power. This is why we're not supposed to be alone! It's like, "right, I can own my own stuff, but would like to be reminded of what really matters through the medium of another human's touch".
So it's a double-edged sword; on one hand, a lot of people expect someone else to make them feel better, and on the other hand, we need touch to be connected to the truth of continuum of what's real; life. How do you know which edge you're playing with?
Maybe it's the feeling of appreciation when someone is around to touch you, when you need it, instead of demanding someone to be there for you, when things go south? Yes, that feels right. To demand of another something you can't give to yourself is creating co-dependency, but to be appreciative of another's presence is supportive of personal growth and expansion.
Phhhhew! That was a close call in directing energy. Could have gone either way!
I choose appreciation. Thank you for being in my life, even if in a virtual capacity.
Until we touch,
Much love,
M
Awesome, it is a double edged sword and striking the middle path can be a challenge but luckily we have feedback to help us.
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